one day at a time.

one day at a time is all we need.

don't forget me.

hello friend,
It doesn't really matter which friend I'm talking about, because in the end, there are only a few people who I'd call a true friend, and you know who you are. So this year is ending fast, and I haven't said everything that I wanted to say nor have I don't everything that I wanted to do. When high school ends, I really do hope that you guys will still be there. And if you guys don't, I suppose I'll live, but life wouldn't be the same. I'm afraid when high school is over, whoever I was in high school will disappear and I won't be remembered.

My friend once asked me, "If someone says to you, 'don't try to forget me too fast,' what would you say?"
And I replied back saying, "well, I guess I'd say, 'I doubt I'll ever forget you.'"

It's true. Forgetting is something hard to do, and forgetting someone important is something I'd never want to do, even if i had to. Even if it doesn't seem like it, you come across my mind at least once a day and I think, "oh, I wonder what _____ is doing right now."

So, even after high school and even if we never see each other again, don't forget me. Try to remember me because I'll always remember you.

is it okay?

Best, I hate how we're not the same anymore.

This is my breaking point.

"We trusted you."

oh, inteverted world.

I think it's times when I stop trying to be happy that scare me the most.

in the end.

Sometimes I wonder, "Do I even matter anymore?"

I suppose I can pretend that I make sense in this world, but it won't make much of a difference.

You see, to you, I'm nothing more than the grades that I achieve. But I can't keep up with it anymore. I suppose I can work harder and harder, but I figured that I want more out of life than this. But this is all you expect from me. I wish you'd see past what I can do, and take notice of who I am instead. Do you know what my favorite color is? What about my interests? What about what I want? I suppose it doesn't matter. So in the end, do I matter?

the future freaks me out.

I remember when I was younger I always prayed to God that time would just freeze and everything would remain as it was. I was so afraid of growing older and moving towards the future. I liked my life as it was, being carefree, not having to deal with responsibilities and what not. I couldn't imagine myself in my late 20's, having a job, living on my own, and being independent. I still think about that thought and I still feel the same way. Though, I suppose I'm more accepting of the future now because that's life.

either or

Even when the happiness ends, I think I'll be okay.