is this it?

What am I supposed to do when you give up on me?


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You're my friend. You're not supposed to make me choose between you and another friend. It's like saying, "If you had to save one person, would it be your mom or your dad?" It's not fair. I won't choose. I'd rather die saving both than losing one.



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You feel better, but I feel like dying inside. Even though I'm talking to you right now, I can't tell you how I really feel.


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& sometimes I wish life would go back to the way it used to be. I feel like I'm losing everyone, one day at a time.

What'll happen after?

Well, you'll forget me, and I'll be nothing but a memory.

one day at a time.

one day at a time is all we need.

don't forget me.

hello friend,
It doesn't really matter which friend I'm talking about, because in the end, there are only a few people who I'd call a true friend, and you know who you are. So this year is ending fast, and I haven't said everything that I wanted to say nor have I don't everything that I wanted to do. When high school ends, I really do hope that you guys will still be there. And if you guys don't, I suppose I'll live, but life wouldn't be the same. I'm afraid when high school is over, whoever I was in high school will disappear and I won't be remembered.

My friend once asked me, "If someone says to you, 'don't try to forget me too fast,' what would you say?"
And I replied back saying, "well, I guess I'd say, 'I doubt I'll ever forget you.'"

It's true. Forgetting is something hard to do, and forgetting someone important is something I'd never want to do, even if i had to. Even if it doesn't seem like it, you come across my mind at least once a day and I think, "oh, I wonder what _____ is doing right now."

So, even after high school and even if we never see each other again, don't forget me. Try to remember me because I'll always remember you.

is it okay?

Best, I hate how we're not the same anymore.

This is my breaking point.

"We trusted you."

oh, inteverted world.

I think it's times when I stop trying to be happy that scare me the most.